Probably every generation will say this about the decade of their own childhood–BUT, the 1980’s really were the best time to be a little kid. It was such a contradictory time though–for the first time ever, Saturday morning cartoon commercials spoke completely to us, the kids. They sparkled, and flashed loudly, screaming to us kids about toys, and junk food and they made us think we needed ALL of it. (After all, no childhood was complete without Nerds Cereal.) At the same time, the emphasis on fitness was bigger than ever. Jobs were moving from the labor market to the cubicle, and Richard Simmons and Denise Austin were household names along with their work out videos. Pee-Wee Herman talked about exercising his body, Jem talked about it and even a line in Ghostbusters 2 exclaimed, “Stay Fit. Keep Sharp. Make good decisions.”
Fast forward to today. Here I am. I’m not fit, I’m not sharp and I make questionable decisions. Exercise is a chore and checking Facebook is so much simpler than working on a crossword. Besides, when I’m feeling burnt out–why the hell would I choose to do anything that feels difficult? Through all of this…I’m literally letting my body AND my mind turn into lumps. And, I’m doing it willingly. I’m doing it all while staring into a light–my screens. And, when I think about it–I’ve been sliding downhill like this for the past few years, without realizing that this is not how I should be living–but, it’s just so normal in this day-and-age. It’s what we do. We stare at our Newsfeed, we don’t have time, or energy, to exercise and we forget that both of those those things equal really bad decisions. Honestly, it was actually Dr. Who’s Christmas episode made me realize it’s time to wake up. Like, now. Before I get sucked in more, and more. And, before it kills me. Because, let’s be honest…no generation, as a whole, has ever been this lazy with their mind and body. Obesity is going up and Alzheimer’s is hitting younger–and we’re looking for answers as to why–even though we’re staring at it, quite literally.
SO…after the Dr. Who epiphany–I woke up.
I bitch about not being able to find the inspiration I need, while scrolling, mindlessly, through social media.
On the professional side, I get annoyed with (though am, deeply, truly happy for) folks on social media, as they’re talking about all they’re accomplishing. I compare myself, and I get mad, and competitive, and I keep reaching for more, and more, and never finishing anything. I’m just trying to keep up. But, with no sense of completion, I then, feel like a failure.
On the personal side, I get cranky that so many people post pics of the temps on their dashboard, of their kids covered in their diaper contents and of ‘brave’ no-makeup selfies. I’m tired of people giving me play-by-play on stupid sports games and political garbage. I can’t stand people who are always spilling WAY too much information about things like their finances, divorce, sex life, relationships and poor choices. And, I swear…if I see another re-share of a beaten animal, hunting conquest, Disney animal asking for ‘hugs’, pleas for ‘likes’, or anything else that involves the word ‘re-share’, I will vomit. (No, I won’t. I’ll just make a really, crabby looking, face and then banish you to my ‘acquaintance’ list.)
Yet…I keep looking though…because I might find inspiration. Or, because I might see something useful.
And, I keep posting because of my ‘brand’, or because I need to stay ‘relevant’, or because I think I have something witty to say, or to brag about something, or complain, or boast. Here’s the thing though…none of the above is doing ANYTHING positive for me. Not, one, thing. Mostly, I just feel passively annoyed–and, being passively annoyed doesn’t help creativity, or well-being. Ever. So…I kept finding myself going around in this circle that was getting me nowhere but emptier, and crankier, and older, and fatter, and dumber. And for what? To find inspiration? To stay relevant? To boast? Ugh. That is SO STUPID.
ANYWAY…a couple months ago I started pulling back from social media. I figured I just needed a break because of all the stuff with my dad, big struggles on the home front, and just, general, busy-ness. No, one, real, reason actually. I just didn’t have anything to say–and, I wasn’t accomplishing anything boast-worthy. Turned out, I discovered…I had stuff I wanted to do, off line. I didn’t want to go back–so, I picked up a physical book. And, then, I decided that I was kinda bored staring at a screen, all the time, but I missed my mindless games–so I picked back up my crosswords (because, obviously, there is no book for Plants vs Zombies). And, it turned out–that I ended up with almost an extra hour each day, which has given me plenty of time to start my day off with a quick, 30 minute, workout. The workout makes me make WAY better choices with my food and gives me lasting energy, all day. More energy and better food choices make me sharper. Being sharper makes me crave learning. Learning, is what inspires me–and, what has always inspired me. I can focus again. THIS is the circle that makes me feel whole again. And, happy.
I am, literally, feeling the fog lift. Just like when you wake up.
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